Why I Never Married [poem] by David Simpson

Of course, I meant to, having been raised
to believe marriage was God’s plan for us,
and I wanted to
for all the guilt-free sex a man desires
and I had to, if I wanted to be
a real man and a good Christian

but then I took Physics and found out
that fission was just as cool as fusion
and that when you split an atom
whole worlds open to you
and besides I had already fallen in love

with Miss Caisley, my Physics teacher.
It was the day Ralph and I came barging in from history
staging a Roman wrestling match
and there she was, crying with her back to us
and I couldn’t think of anything all day but her tears

and something about mystery:
mystery and confusion, and now I wonder what
confission would be like
and why were we Roman wrestling anyway?
But those tears falling, her back.

I couldn’t stop thinking of gravity
which we had just finished last week
and how Miss Caisley said we all had
a little gravitational pull.  How amazing
to think that my house could be orbiting me

and that I couldn’t help but orbit Miss Caisley
which meant I would be falling for her
perpetually, per second per second
and how could marriage be any better than that?

 

Image of 1930s Switchboard Operator

[Refer: This poem refers to John Farrar singing “Falling.“]

Image by Kevin Dooley via Flickr Creative Commons

David Simpson was born blind in Williamsport, Pennsylvania, in 1952. After attending the Overbrook School for the Blind through eighth grade, he became one of the first blind students in Chester County to attend public school. Simpson earned a master’s degree in organ performance from Westminster Choir College and traveled to Paris for a year of private study with the blind organist Andre Marchal. He has an MFA from New York University. His poetry has appeared in numerous journals including Alaska Quarterly Review, River Styx, The Cortland Review, Verse Daily, and La Petite Zine. He has received grants from the Independence Foundation and the NEA. In 2007, Simpson and his identical twin brother, Daniel, released a CD of their poetry entitled Audio Chapbook. He has read at venues which include The Free Library of Philadelphia, Philadelphia’s First-Person Festival, WXPN World Café, and on Whyy’s Radio Times with Marty Moss‑Coane. He is currently working on a one-person show. A collection of Simpson’s poems, The Way Love Comes to Me, is slated for publication later this year.